So…I haven’t been here in a while. And I’ve really missed it. I’ve missed it so much that I’ve agonized over my leave of absence. I started three drafts that didn’t go anywhere. Because my life wasn’t going anywhere. Because I was in the throes of a depressive episode.
That’s actually what it’s called. It can last anywhere from a couple of weeks to a couple of months, and I don’t know how to predict the start and stop dates. I know that it broke yesterday because I woke up and felt, for the first time in about five weeks, like I could engage with the world without feeling panic or pain.
This is not going to be a real post; I just wanted to let y’all know that I’m back and blogging again. I’m still not sure whether anything I drafted is usable, but I am lucky enough to have plenty of other ideas orbiting the peripheral thinkspace around my conscious mind. In the meantime, thanks to everyone who ticked up my Stats feeding on stale posts…it’s so nice to know that I don’t have to be to-the-minute current to still be considered relevant.
One more thought: the rock to which I have lately been anchored has shifted under choppy seas, and I must attach to a more constant point. I know what this point ought to be, but getting there is difficult. Your good thoughts and prayers are much appreciated during this confusing time in my life, which may not be an experience alien to your own.
Love & blessings,